Never thought you'd read that, huh?

Well, of course I'm only mildly serious. I have a cold, so I guess I've become somewhat repugnant to those around me, considering all the phlegm coming out of various holes in my body.

*sniff*

Germs aside, though, I've yet again found myself in a state of constant over-arousal, with little or no means of satisfaction. Is it the daily living? The use of 'everyday panties' since I only one one or three pair sexy undies? Is it sharing a bathroom on a day to day basis? I don't know.

*shrug*

*sniff*

All in all, the past few weeks have been emotionally exhausting. A few days ago my (s)mother and I had a gigantic brawl while MW was out getting a haircut. It was about a lot of things, more than can dicussed here, but I got a lot off my chest, and I think I made her understand things from my perspective a bit more, and gained insight on her perspective.

*sniff*

Tonight, MW and I will be going to the Farmer's Market, where a whole whack of the city's restaurants will be there, letting you sample some of their finer dishes (for a price, of course). It should be a nice time. And, y'know, as much as I complain about the coochie cobwebs, I still do think MW is, well, wonderful.

*sniff*

....... hearing them have sex while watching Saw. This movie is gory, gory, gory. I have a strong stomach, but this made me feel a little uncomfortable at times. That was even before I heard the rhythmic thump, thump, thrump, grunt, grunt, grunt, coming from right above our heads, uptairs. Mr. Wonderful didn't hear it, and I didn't want to break the mood of the movie, so I kept it to myself. So I listened, until it was over, until I heard them both use the washroom. I nearly vomitted.

I know, I know. As someone who enjoys working with sexual health issues, I should be more open to my *squirm* parents healthy sexual relationship. But, nope, I'm not going to do it. It's gross. Icky. Wrong.

1. Always leave the room if someone is peeing.
2. If you don't clean up after yourself, bugs will enter your house (okay, I already knew this, but seeing it represented graphically really brought the point home).
3. Don't call people at 3am.
4. Pay the bills.
5. Don't buy stuff whenever you have money. It's good to save, sometimes.
6. Dishwashers are trash compactors are near necessities.
7. So are maids.
8. You have to like someone to sleep with them.
9. Having a big house with little furniture is better than a small house with lots of furniture.
10. Always be on time for work.
11. Don't tickle people unless you know them well.
12. Baths are better than showers.
13. It is difficult to seduce a man.
14. It is not difficult to seduce a woman.
15. I'm a damn good dancer.
16. There is little time in the span of the day to have fun.
17. It's important to have a good sleep.
18. Never put off going to the bathroom.
19. It's hard to find a job if you're depressed.
    
20. Some people, no matter what, are just jerks.

It's been an odd few weeks around here, readers. Let's try to sort this all out.

1) My mother got a call from the doctor's office regarding a chest x-ray she had done in November. I spent the weekend worried sick about the C-word. She got the results Monday, and it seems the x-ray is cloudy due to heart surgery she had a few years ago. They are still going to do more tests, but things are probably not too serious. Fewf.

2) A very good, pregnant, friend of mine was admitted to hospital with early contractions. She and (as yet still unborn) baby are both doing very well, thankfully, but I had to change my underwear when I first heard the news.

3) Last night, I had a dream that I ran over a ferret, and kept on driving. Very troubling.

4) It's been decided that MW will move out of the pot-infested yuck-shack that he's been residing in to live....here. It makes sense in a lot of ways, but it's not fun living with the parents. They are fine people, but I feel like we are living as brother and sister, not lovers.

5) What else? Well, nothing really. We are both still looking for work, and I am constantly paranoid of the fact that one of us will find a job that will separate us again, and I'm not sure what will happen after that. I've spent more than one night awake feeling sad, lonely, nervous, anxious, and/or frustrated at the uncertainty of everything.

6) I worry about us, and I worry about money, of course. Hey, have I said that I am currently being investigated by HRDC because of a discrepancy between my reported earnings, and my employer's reported earnings for an EI claim I made in 2003? If I don't get to the bottom of it, I may have to pay over $200. Yes. Oh, and VISA put up my interest to 24%. Yes.

7) I almost forgot to mention this! This is actually funny and non-depressing! I SHAVED MY BOYFRIEND'S ASS. Hahaha! It was actually extremely non sexual, unless you have a medical fetish. See, he is afflicted with a Pilonidal abscess, which is pretty extremely painful. So, I did my girlfriend duty and helped him out with things in that general area. All I can say is that if one ever wanted proof of true love, that would be it.

Oh, and in case you're wondering: Yes, I did get permission to write about that.

1) "Oops!"

2) "I can't find your cervix."

3) "Looks like I made you bleed."


*Incidentally, I heard all three of these phrases today, and am glad I only have to go once a year.

I'm in the library computer lab again. What a strange place. The only thing you hear are keys being hit and breathing. I sort of feel... like a lab rat. Push button, get reward, push button, get reward - only now the reward isn't a pellet of food but a new email.

This morning I went to the UW touchdown, where they revealed how much they raised from the campaign. I went with two other former staff members. It was nice to see them again. Afterwards, we all went out for lunch with the current staff, and some of the volunteers. It was weird to be eating lunch with several people who have either laid me off from jobs, or have rejected me from interviews. I must say, being back, especially today, has not been good for my self confidence. As I was well aware of before moving, I've gone from big fish/small pond to small fish/big pond. So, what do I do? Well, I try to become a big fish, I guess. During lunch, I began to think if I had it... that intagible quality that I see in some of the people around - people I respect. What is that quality? Leadership? Chutzpa? Experience?